Trust me...I don't know either.

Here is what is going on:

• I am in mental crisis mode
• I am overloaded yet not in constant motion (I am trying to compensate...HA!)
• I am in pain (still with the arm!) most of the time.  When I am not in pain I am sleeping.
• I am in a spiritual drought but am starting to turn the corner
• I have gained somewhere between 10 to 15 pounds just in the past month
• In the past month I have been named in an investigation
• In the past two weeks I have been "interviewed" (aka, interrogated)
• I am too self aware
• I am tired

So.  I have a bit of complaining but don't really want to do that so I won't. 

You know, I never really understood why I started blathering about my life on this thing.  It was started as a way to give people info about the Deuce after he was born (which means this thing is over 5 years old).  Then it was where I posted crazy stuff. Then I got all narcissistic and needy and starting whining.  Then it became a way to warn the people around me that I was about to have a "moment" and that distance was a good idea.

I have shut this thing down once and then opened it back up (flake!) and am considering what to do next.  Does it matter and does anyone really need to see this stuff?